However long
- SC
- May 10, 2019
- 1 min read
However long it was, it was a long time.
What tense does one use to describe this warping of inner time? Where one exists in a constant state of “has happened” and “could be”s that are taking place right now?
For when two streams meet to become a river, it makes no sense to distinguish between past forms.
________ slipped in, exact and transient. So quick as to almost have gone unnoticed.
But I noticed, and I thought about it for days after.
In that moment, I knew I wouldn’t accept something I couldn’t give back, and it broke me in an impossible way.
Something was irrevocably lost that day — an innocence and a dream.
I cannot help but confront the thing that is ugly in me — to look it in the eye (in the mirror; into myself). But the problem is that when you take something apart to fix it, it never gets put back in quite the same way it was before.
